I hate ants. I think they are now one of my biggest fears. Last night, I stupidly left cookies out on the table in Tami and my room. Between the window and the cookies, sat my laptop. Of course, the ants coming from the window COULD have gone around, but no. They marched straight through my computer and to the cookies and back. Almost 24 hours later, there are thousands of ants still inhabiting my computer. I set it in a box for 20 minutes, and when I came back it was full of ants. I am covered by ant bites and can't believe how many thousands are in my computer. Hopefully I get them out before they do any damage...but how much damage can ants do..right? On the plus side, it's 9 pm and we still have power! That's a nice change from the power being off 8-12 every night for the past two months.
I know I should write more, but it's really just the same thing every day. Though I still like being here, its becoming tedious and repetitive. Its funny because today I was reading my journal (that I kept for like a month when I first got here) and I used to think everything was new and exciting. I guess its because it was. I remember thinking that lesson plans would be so hard and teaching would be hard too, but that's the easiest part of being here in Palau. The thing they don't warn you about is boredom. They don't tell you that a small thing like ants and destroy your day or not being home for Christmas will make such a big impact. I just wish I could be at home sometimes, but I know that wouldn't make me happy. Being here makes me happy. It just takes a little reminding. The kids make it all worth it. Whether its kindergartners swarming me at recess, first grade asking for piggy back rides, hugs from third graders, boy talk with sixth graders, or just my own kids telling me they love me, I love them all!
Today I was in such a bad mood, and just kept trying to get the ants out of my computer while the kids were doing their work. Shayne kept asking the same question over and over and over after I answered every time she asked. Right when I was about to snap, I went back to my desk and sat down. A second later I feel a tap on my shoulder and Daichi is standing there holding a sillyband in the shape of a heart. He just puts it in my hand and walks away. It was funny how something so insignificant could make my day so much better.
Ugh. I hear you. Hang in there, the boredom is tough, but it stretches you. I remember going to Palau on the plane and watching the movies the entire time, but then on the way back I just sat and looked at the ocean, all 8,000 miles of it. It was peaceful, and I liked that. I had learned to BE instead of DO. Sometimes I wish I still had that gift.
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